In the Beginning ...

A while back I was seeing a Clinical Social worker about my inability to cope with my new job.  We talked openly about how I came from a creative background and the job I was employed at had all the creativity of a pile of Cow S#*t!  Over the course of two or three months we spoke at length about my creative rut and what I should do.  I told him that I thought I might want to start a blog.  It seemed harmless enough, except that it would mean that I would have to start to really explain myself to others.  He pushed me to make the decision to start this blog and each week I agreed that I would start that weekend.  That was 11 months ago.  I guess I'm ready now.  As in the title of this Blog I seem to have always been "Waiting for the Awful".  Even now I am wondering if by writing this I will offend someone to the point that they will no longer speak with me or that a potential employer will see me as a risk and won't hire me.  Over the next few weeks, months and maybe even years, I'll fill you in on my life as a Clinically Depressed person.  Some of you will know exactly what I am going through.  Some of you will be very sympathetic.  And some will never understand.  Go ahead and comment if you wish but know this.  I am not looking for pity.  I am using this as a tool to get better.  My family and friends deserve a better Michael and I am going to do my best to give it to them.  I will always try to look at this from a humorous angle but I'm sure there will be the occasional sad post or two.  Thanks for taking the journey.  Oh yeah.  Sometime I type faster than I think so a misspelling ,grammatic error or completely wrong word will appear.  See you soon. --- Dec. 28, 2012